Welcome to the TRU LIFE

For some reason, I think the best way to start my blog is to tell you why I am starting a blog. I know it seems cliché, but here we go.

The idea came to me months ago! But of course, scared little old me did not act on it. I literally had a million and one reasons why I should start this blog but FEAR seemed to always speak louder than all of those reasons. I wanted to share my stories about life, travel, love or the lack there of. But that damn FEAR.!

I look at my generation and I see so many young individuals living their best life! I'm talking pure joy. There are people my age waking up everyday and making money doing the things that make their soul happy! Why can't I be one of them?

Fear!

So many of us have not achieved goals, hell some of us haven't even set goals, because of FEAR. We have the vision, but a lot of us have placed ourselves in these self-made prisons. We are sitting in our box (comfort zone) and watching through a windows as others live their best life.  But why not live ourselves? 

I remember asking myself one day, at what point are you going to start believing in yourself? At what point are you going to live the life you have always imagined? At what point do you let go of FEAR and begin to walk in faith?

And that's when shit got real. I had to take a second to look myself in the mirror and say… YOU ARE THE ONLY THING HOLDING YOU BACK! God has giving you the vision, the work ethic, the life experiences, and the passion… all you have to do is make it happen.! *praise break*

Easier said then done though, right?

I guess that meant, I had to get off my ass and make some things happen!

So here we are.

I have always been a girl who hid behind her words. So many times I had great ideas, but was too afraid to share them. I wanted to curse someone out, but was too afraid to say it. I was too afraid to hurt their feelings (not even taking into account that the same person just hurt my feelings). *Rolls Eyes* So many times I wanted to do something that would make my SOUL happy, but was too afraid of how my happiness would make others feel. I always felt like I had something to say, but the words just seemed to never come out. I was afraid.

I've lived my life in FEAR. In fear of what other people would think of me. In fear of failure. In fear of how I would make others feel. In fear of rejection.  In fear of the unknown. In fear of all the "what ifs" out there. I was even going about my days living in fear of achieving my own goals and dreams!

Hell, being at the top is scary. But I want it. Not being average requires hard work. But I want it. I know that new levels will bring new devils. But I want it. And most importantly, I think I owe it to myself to at least try it! Don’t you think?  Didn't somebody say something like if you shoot for the moon you will at least land amongst the stars? (I think that’s how it goes)

So as I shoot for the moon, I scream NO MORE FEAR all the way up! TODAY is the day I choose faith  . Today is the day I choose me. Today is the day I start believing in myself and start living the life I have always imagined! Today is the day I put away the opinions of others and vow to forever be TRU to me. I will no longer dim my light for anyone, because from now on I choose to SHINE!

Welcome to the Tru Life of Courtney! This is me.

xoxo

Courtney Marie